Hey

Hey,
I just couldn't sleep
wondering someday
i might get some sleep
tiring soul and upset mind
tiring eyes but heavy heart
insomnia
putting me into frustration
i just wanna say
Please give me some relaxation spaces

when impossible turns dark

Sometime I really think it is a joke for me,
Everyday i open my eyes is just like :

Oh, I needed to wait again..

When i needed to wait till?
It is like an endless road
I cant see my hope and future,
i told myself i needed to be positive,
but somehow disappointment comes
and i am now in depress mood,
I just dont understand why i keep falling down,
stand up is hard somehow
i have no way to stand up,
i never thought i dont even get an entry into the university
is it because of my results?
But there are people less pointer than me
but they succeed
i still a failure
searching for the plan B
But i found out money is really matter
What i wanted to study it seems i need to give up
in the kind cross station
what am i going to study
what i need to do'
it just like a mess for me
keep drowning
is it so difficult for me to continue my study?
My mother wanted me to enter a better university
and she never thought that better university need more money
change course
what i can study instead of what i wanted to study
when thing come to money matter
it just ruin up your thought
no money no talk world
struggle and exhausted
i wish i just can disappear from this world,
keep myself in a hut
to gain some peace
that all i need now