Argue

Something i need to express here,
Today, it really ruin my day,
Actually is kinda bad talking people here,
But I really cant stand at all,
And I really dont understand why people can keep complaining the same thing in few days,
I really peace off,
I just want to say that,
The world is not fair,
Nothing is going to be fair in this world,
The child instinct is going to be left in the old old world,
right now,
people are all about you can or you cant,
And sometimes because you own specialties or  others,
You may get thing faster and easier than somebody that more better and hardworking than you,
Even that you argue you wont get actually what you want,
It affects your day, your mood and your believe,
Trust in people and have faith in someone is good,
But it is different in each situation,
I think if you satisfy for what you have, you will be happier,
Life is just simple thing,
Dont mess up and end up with complication,
But i think maybe is my problem also,
I need to reduce my anger and my tone,
Next time i must be more ladylike,
If not people thought i'm scolding them,
Actually,
sometime kinda sad also,
I felt i always need to change my character to adapt into this world
But i think people always need to be corrected,
I do think i need to be more calm and patient all the while,
AS im growing up,
But i think the point that should be understand is,
everyone need to grow up
get connected to this world
and not just kept into your own world,
world is full of lot of different kind of people,
You easily get hurt if you keep in this form,
That all i want to say,
Just be rational,
Problem finally can be settle,
fought for nothing ending up to be zero,
Beyond the comparison,
What can you interpret from here,
Different people do different thing,
There is no way to argue that you are not worth it or what
But you never loose anything even you do more than others,
During the process,
you actually gain many experiences and knowledge that other does not
enjoy the process
you find you will be happy with it
and you have to thank you the person who ask you to do the thing,
because you may get use of it in future,
If you doing loose thing, you wont gain thing,
So why not we do it happily??

Be happy

- LiVe IS SimPle -

Life is Simple,
Be Who You are,
Be what you think,
Be glad,
Because you still breathing still air
You are still live
Appreciate what you have,
That's Life!!

September in 2012

- Hello September 2012 -

THE year of 2012 finally enter september,

I always like september,

The 9 words is meaningful to me,

because my date of birth is make up of 4 nine from 9 words,

haha..

However, this year september is hectic for me,

I just nearly finish my trial paper,

Oh my god, 

The question is very very tough..

How could i insert all 70 plus chapter in my head??

I need to find a alternative way for it..

Still have a paper to go - biology paper 1,

But the important part had all screw in 1 whole week,

This week just like a nightmare to me,

Coughing nearly 1 month still not getting better,

Plus i didn't get enough sleep, everyday day only sleep 4 to 5 hours,

My eye bag can fight with the panda now,

haha.. terrible look now = =

Still have a few couple month to go for my stpm,

If you ask me whether I am really for the test,

I definitely say NOT YET!!

Not confident in every subject, even math, 

somehow i felt is very very tough indeed,

Need some relaxation space ><

How about 60 years later? How will my book looks like?

perhaps few month later - my real holidays will be coming soon,

but before that,

I guess i really need to sacrifice a lot,

waiting my vacation next year!!

Will going Bali Island with my 8 high school friend together!!

It's amazing, so cool right?

We had book the air ticket!!

Waiting for the 31 March next year..

Suddenly feel like my life is like touch and go,

When i graduate for primary school,

I didn't contact with my friends until now,

Actually i did miss the time we mixed up together,

But after when i shifted to my house right now,

I no longer contact with them anymore,

It makes me sad sometime,

I wonder whether i will meet the same situation every time i graduate?

Still questioning myself,

Relationship regarding friendship, family is always the thing i thinking of,

But right now i still cant get the answer i want,

Perhaps is my problem

The day is rainy in these past week

My condition is not good now,

need to regain back my health and my mood,

Let's share some luck to all of you,

And me too ..

Goodluck!!!

 

 

 

  

The legend - Lin Dan

The New Badmintion single is out,
 the whole world is discussing the hit two hero,
China representative- Lin Dan with the full medal entitled vs Malaysia hero - Dato Lee Choong Wei,
Lin Dan is always my hero,
He is always my role model,
He is all the time,
When he played i felt this spirit,
perhaps we both are libra,
you cant really understand the feeling in depth myself toward him,
People usually cant understand why i prefer to support lin dan but not lee choong wei,
I could say there is no reason behind why i like lin dan so much,
Actually i also do not know why,
but whenever he played any match, it occurs naturally to support him,
i will be very very happy and satisfy when he won,
Conversely when he loose i will be very very down,
Non of the artist will makes me crazy like this,
And this supports had come to the 6 or 7 years today,
I like the way he played the game,
The confident from him had actually cover the whole area,
you can feel him when he is there,
He means champion, the toughest man in the badminton academic
People always say he is arrogant,
I felt that if he is not arrogant enough in his game,
he may felt timid and unstable when he almost loose the game,
He had a very tough and strong physiologic mind,
It makes him become the strongest warrior - the new king in badminton,
This is the spirit lee choong wei lack of,
I understand he had a very huge pressure on him,
but that's is not the reason of his failure,
The lacking of tough emotionally control makes him lost confident when i loose out some point,
For me both of them are the country hero,
You cant say that lin dan is not although china has a lot of medals,
but the contribution toward his nation,
you can feel it,
when the games over, two athlete cried,
One is because of disappointment, one is because of emotionally happy,
Lin dan is today's lin dan because of himself,
Every champion has story behind them,
the medals doesnt come as easy as you see,
I impressed lin dan' hardwork,
He always serious and pay a lot of effort during the training,
He always said that he is more lucky to win the medals,
but nobody knew that the hardship behind he had faced,
the obstacles and difficulties behind him,
I wish to get the lin dan new book - Until the end of the world,
I wish to get a chance to see him directly,
I wish my permanent idol - Lin Dan,
congratulation to be the first man who had won all the championship in this world,
and become the first person who save gold medal twice in the olimpic game,
I hope his spirit will continue,
The spirit to inspire me always to become a better man,
I will,
always remember the legend in my life,
The spirit from him, - Lin Dan

Regards,
wanying

sunshine in my heart

The weather in these past days were terrible,
eventually i fall sick,
I hate the feeling of falling sick,
make me felt so uncomfortable,
The haze is back,
In addition the weather is terrible hot and dry,
I wonder what if you are in outdoor the whole day,
Perhaps the water inside you body may vaporised,
All results are received,
Well, it really make me very disappointed of myself,
however,
I really swear to myself to start study now for the next exam in july,
Life getting harder each time,
The moment i felt i'm getting through it,
It fails me the second time,
The obstacles is in chain reaction,
Keep going,
No one will stop by to look what happen to you,
I smile while teacher ask me
"wanying, what's going on with you,
you did it very badly this time,
you never did this before, you really surprised me but disappoint me"
The smile seems so weak for myself,
I have no excuse,
Excuses only for weak human to escape themselves from mistakes,
I never forgive myself if i do that,
So I dont,
Reading an articles of a friend of mine yesterday,
I never knew that she actually understand me more than I do,
I always fear of not doing the best,
I felt is not okay when someone is better than you,
Because i felt that I should always be better than other,
All about it is my pride,
I took it too high,
It is the only thing valuable in my life,
That's why i always remain confident and full of determination,
I never let myself fall,
Never,
I can withstand all the failure i met,
Just this time, my heart collapse,
My faith went to the bottom of the world,
Perhaps my friend's words were right,
I need to gain back my identity,
It's not hard i can say,
because if i think i can do it,
there is no way to block my determination,
I guess, i should go back my charming blue sky
instead of keeping myself under a grey cloth,
somehow i felt myself symbolised as a warrior,
The time of healing is enough,
well, i'm back to fight,
The sun i'm back to you,
To search back myself
Thank you very much to Peikhim,
To remind me during my very down season,
I'm going to be okay,
no worries XD

If

If you never give, you will never hurt yourself,
If you never wish to understand, you will be happier,
If you never cry, you wont know how painful it is,
If you never disappointed, you wont get to know the heartbroken feeling,
If you never try, you wont knew what is your answer,
I wish i never try thus I never involve,
Yet I never hurt myself.

the complication

The feeling of not accepted is worst.

It's always been like this,

but i do not know why.

it's getting easier to hurt myself,

whenever tears drop,

i warn myself never let's it fall apart my face,

i knew that i must be strong enough to withstand everything 

but the feeling of being alone never makes me feel better

All of the sudden, I never knew that i do not understand my brother at all,

after somehow i found out that he is no longer that little boy,

he had grown up,
But when he met problem,
he never has the chances and people to express,
Just once i went to Singapore for 3 days,
I went with my family, 2 aunt and my mother,
Actually we just plan to visit my brother because we had long time never meet up,
Another time then we went to visit Singapore.
During dinner, he suddenly talk many thing to me,
Within a second, i felt that he seems like a stranger to me,
I never knew that there is a gap in between us in this 4 years apart,
I never knew that he is lonely,
He is always lonely since primary,
He had no friends,
He always walk all by himself,
He never open up his heart
until there is someone who really concern and take care him
He felt he is alive as human not immortal,
He enjoy his live very well,
He likes somebody,
I felt that he has same character as me,
we both are the same,
We thought we never need friend,
We will never get hurt if we never gave
He want to change his lifestyle,
But a rumours bring him back to the earth,
He is now in complication,
He suffers, he is in pain,
I never knew that that period has bring huge impact on him,
I thought i'm the only one,
I wish i can relief his pain,
i want help him away all this pain,
I'm helpless,
I hope that he is happy,
Just happy i never knew this talent has bring a lonely life to him,
I never notice it all this while,
i felt that i'm a failure,
I'm never been pass to become a sister,
Fail in every single thing is my life,
I knew he manage to solve this all by himself,
He knew to apologise,
He learn the way to communicate,
I hope i manage to see the New Brand Of Him,
The person full with confidence, full with intelligent,
More patient, more sensible,  more happy,
Wish he can enjoy the life till the fullest,
I'm glad, he trust me,
He told everything to me,
He allow me to read their conversation,
I appreciate it,
Take care well, my dearest, the only I had,
XD..

With great love ,
wanying