Grey

It seems like after shifting my blog her, i totally have no comments,
well, but i think it's okay,
what i wrote is just want to express my feeling,
what i think and what have I been going through all this while,
Suddenly i felt I'm getting down the hill,
being like an old man,
But yet, i have about few month to go before facing exam,
I dont know why i behave weird this year,
just i cant concentrate very well,
when exam,
i felt very very sleepy,
my hands were shivering ,
during exam i cant even think of something,
nothing come out from my brain,
it makes me panic,
and i do not know why,
i felt a little bit dismay at myself,
Disappointment toward myself,
A deep disappointment,
somehow i cry after my exam,
i dont even want to face it,
because i fear,
i know i cant accept the fact - the marks i receive,
i just a coward,
I dont even can face myself,
it brought depression,
it really hurt me,
my teacher doesnt scold me,
she understand me,
instead she give me huge encouragement,
i appreciate it very much,
I dont know what's going on,
but i wish to adjust myself,
toward the new challenges,
fight is better than flight,
And
I believe i can do it,
Dont you too? 

Dismay

Suddenly i felt very depress today, a little bite of dismay,
The feeling is worst,
I cant even drive smoothly today,
nearly i met an accident,
What's wrong with me,
Cant even concentrate very well,
focus,
What am i doing?
I think I'm going to Fail in my chemistry paper,
When i see the question,
i was shivering,
My brain is 99% blank,
What is that, and how about that?
I dont even remember at all,
I didnt finish studying my organic chemistry,
Even the chapter i had finished,
I yet cant remember at all,
All about oxidation, reflux, addition, neutrophilic, electrophillic,
All process mixing up together,
I forgot Sb is antimony,
I felt very bad today,
my mood is totally disrupted,
I feel like shouting,
My mood is now at maximum stages,
feel like going to be insane soon,
i still have my bio and math paper to go,
I never felt this before,
All my cell had been stress up to the max,
I couldnt sleep well,
sleep couple hour and study,
but yet i still cant answer the question,
i just want to express,
express all my ill-feeling,
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Will I?

It's Friday again, the 6th April of the year of 2012,

Suddenly i felt that life passes very fast,

One day to another day,

And you finally realised that you are not doing anything very very well,

Somehow i feel there is complication within my heart,

I felt that i cant do what i expect,

It makes me very depress,

Th depression including some disappointment, 

It makes my day worst,

Sometime i really want to do something but the outcome make my day become rainy,

I wish i could be someone like my brother,

The always brilliant, excellent and distinguished  person,

I have a bundle of works to do,

Why i always feel that my 24 hours is not adequate for me,

Sleeping spend the most time,

But i cant even sleep less,

I will get sick,

It makes me worry,

My studies - 2 biology, 2 Chemistry and 2 Math book,

How am i suppose to squish everything into my brain?

My primary friend is living to japan to further his studies,

Suddenly, i realised that our friendship is maintain about 7 years,

7 years friendship,

Actually i do not agree much on maintaining friendship,

No matter how close are you and your friend,

Once both of you are isolated in different place,

You will be adapted in your environment, 

you will start making your own friends,

You will having your own life,

But both of you will have less topic to talk on since both of you have different lifestyle,

Your friendship will not be getting that close any more,

I guess, this is why i'm not close to my primary friend and secondary now i guess,

Because i always unable to attend any gathering,

I felt sad too, 

because last time we have a great time,

missing the time when we are all together,

I really admire those who able to keep in touch after 10, 20, 30 etc years later,

Will I?

 

April Fool 2012

Today is the 1st April in this year 2012,

The weather today is very hot, neither it rains today,

However, it is too troublesome if it rains,

Today i went to visit the grave of ancestors,

It is a custom tradition for every Chinese,

It is a very tiring work,

We have to walk further up to the hill by carrying all heavy stuff,

After that, we have to clean the grave, remove all the wheat and followed by the prayer,

While waiting, we chat among our relative who are hardly seen during normal day,

It is a good time to get to know each other well,

My cousin, she used to study in Malacca, get to see her today too,

><, pleasure time actually,

But it is too hot, have to bring couple of umbrella,

If not i will be getting darker and darker,

Tiring day.

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What i want to say is all about my old friend, 

I would say he is my old friend because we are friend seen we are primary,

Still recall the first time i saw him, 

i guess during my standard 5 that time,

He is a skinny and tall guy,

Humour character and a good, nice friend,

Although we study in different school, 

live in different place,

Just meet once in these 7 years, 

seldom message to each other,

but he is my very special friend in my heart,

Still remember that time, 

whenever i have problem, he is the one who cheer me up,

he always have faith in me that i will get a good results in my studies,

I really appreciate him for trusting me,

the encouragement is work for everyone,

one of us can live without friends,

especially me,

he is going to Japan tomorrow,  

Neither both of us will be within these 2 to 4 years,

I appreciate he tell me that he is leaving,

this meant that he appreciate our friendship very much,

as goes as me,

Everyone has the right to chase for our dream,

I wish all the best for him,

I believe that he will adapt himself very well in Japan,

you will always notice him,

He is that kind of person,

although in between he might be changed,

but in my memories, he remains that character,

I will me very miss him,

The best friend of mine, the longest friendship,

Ng Wei Hong,

All the best and good luck in your life,

I have faith in you that you can do it very well,

Take good care, 

enjoy your life..

>< 

REgards,

wanying

  

1st

This is the first post ever in my new blog,
Actually I did have a blog in blogger before but i was hacked by someone else,
So i switch it to blog.com,
However i found it have a lot problem through the comments dropped by,
So i finally back to the blogger,
Well, welcome to my world i could say that,
My blog, forever memories that cherish in our life,
The results are not very important i could say but the process leave us a lot of memories in our life,
The memories brighten our life,
It rearrange my life and make me a better person,
Recently i receive a few comments from my supporters,
They said my writing skill had drop dramatically,
Not as good as previous one,
I think i cant answer it very well,
Because my articles are the ways i express my feeling,
Still remember that harsh time i had ever in my secondary life,
All about volleyball,
The relationship problem i have, the feeling of loneliness and stay all alone as myself,
That feeling was worst,
I am sensitive person i could say,
My friend said my face is an indicator,
I strongly agree this statement,
But i cant explain why,
Suddenly i felt that i was disconnect with my secondary and primary friends,
I always being like that but i dont know why,
I always have problem all the time in my life,
I still wondering is it because of myself?
I think 99% is yes,
Perhaps, i may reconsider myself again,
the last year of high school life,
i wonder how will the future road be,
I think i may leave internet about half a year,
I gotta push up my STPM result,
all the best people ><