Grey

It seems like after shifting my blog her, i totally have no comments,
well, but i think it's okay,
what i wrote is just want to express my feeling,
what i think and what have I been going through all this while,
Suddenly i felt I'm getting down the hill,
being like an old man,
But yet, i have about few month to go before facing exam,
I dont know why i behave weird this year,
just i cant concentrate very well,
when exam,
i felt very very sleepy,
my hands were shivering ,
during exam i cant even think of something,
nothing come out from my brain,
it makes me panic,
and i do not know why,
i felt a little bit dismay at myself,
Disappointment toward myself,
A deep disappointment,
somehow i cry after my exam,
i dont even want to face it,
because i fear,
i know i cant accept the fact - the marks i receive,
i just a coward,
I dont even can face myself,
it brought depression,
it really hurt me,
my teacher doesnt scold me,
she understand me,
instead she give me huge encouragement,
i appreciate it very much,
I dont know what's going on,
but i wish to adjust myself,
toward the new challenges,
fight is better than flight,
And
I believe i can do it,
Dont you too?